I woke up with a song in my head and heart and of course on my lips that I had sung when I was in my teens and young adults. I hadn’t heard it in a long time so it was strange to me that all of a sudden, I was singing it over and over again. It is a song written by Twila Paris entitled “Do I Trust You Lord?” It causes the spirit to ask and answer the rhetorical question of how much trust one really has in the Lord. It interjects answers that confirm or prove that God should be trusted. Answers that bring the assumed response- Of course I trust God. After each ask of “Do I trust You Lord?”, the answers presented in a question “Does the river flow?’ “Does the north wind blow?” or “Does the robin sing?” “Does it rain in spring?” are essentially saying- It is obvious the answer is yes or, How can you not trust? Knowing these things always happen, that is a silly question. But is it really a silly question?

When I started the day singing, my heart, my mind, my spirit was saying Lord come what may – in any situation – I will trust you. Lord, you are so good. I trust you. I was glad to be alive. I was in a place of contentment. I had a lovely prayer time with Jesus. I was feeling joyful and filled with praise and worship. Life was good. I was content and had nothing to complain about. Of course, Yes, I trust you and God is good was easy to express.

There is only one thing to do when what your eyes see and what your heart feels does not line up with this truth.

Then the evening came and there was a final answer to something our family was praying for. My aunt passed away and none of us expected it. We were expecting a miracle. We had been praying and the reports coming back to us of a situation that had looked grim, were good. There was a change for the better. We were optimistic and hopeful. Then there was a sudden change and…

We repeat the phrase God is so good so often and so easily when life is going the way we want. How do we know God is good when it doesn’t feel like it and life isn’t what we hoped for or expected?

You repeat the truth.

There is only one thing to do when what your eyes see and what your heart feels does not line up with this truth- God is good.

Jesus died for us. Jesus loves us. He forgives us. His thoughts towards us are good. Every good and perfect gift comes from the Father. He is Omnipotent, Omniscient, Omnipresent. He has all power. He knows all things. He is everywhere and with us at the same time. He sees what we cannot see as He is the first, last, beginning and the end.
(Romans 5:8, Psalm 103:12, Psalm 139:17, Jeremiah 29:11, James 1:17)

Did God so love the world that He gave his one and only Son? John 3:16
Did God who was perfect and without sin give up His life for us? 2 Corinthians 5:21
Is God’s hand too short that it cannot save? Reach us? Isaiah 59:1

Does God change?

Is God good? The answer is, Are these things true? – All the time

Other lyrics in the song by Twilla say –

You can see my heart- You can read my mind- And you’ve got to know- I would rather die- Than to lose my faith- In the One I love…
I will trust you Lord, when I don’t know why. I will trust you, Lord, till the day I die-I will trust you, Lord, when I blind with pain
You were God before and You’ll never change…

I will faith it so I am not lead to follow my feelings . Jesus wept. He knows my grief. I feel sad, heartbroken in fact, but I know what I know.
Do I trust you Lord? Is God good?