I love to sing. When I am in a worship service or environment, I just put my whole heart into it. I feel free and unrestricted. I am ministering God and to myself as if no one else is present. I sing loud though and I can sometimes be very conscious of others hearing me. I sometimes get caught up in the struggle of not liking my own voice and then thinking others don’t want to hear me. And then I pull back and affect my own worship of God and what I enjoy and what I want to release and give to God. Are there times in your life that you struggle with the gift God has given and how to use it? Times where that means that God is not getting the best of your offering?
If I had listened to the voice that day that fed my insecurities, I don’t know whose life God was trying to bless, would have missed their blessing, including my own
There were about 1000 people at this conference, yet three people sought me out to give me the same message. They were sitting within a triangle radius from where I was sitting. When the worship and the teaching time were completed, one person, leapt from across the aisle from where she was sitting to make sure that during the break time, she didn’t miss me. I was surprised and moved to emotion at what she felt was so urgent to share with me. She said “I just had to tell you…”
Outside in the foyer where hundreds of people were lined up in lines or standing in groups having conversation as they had their snacks, I was just trying to get by and pass through a break in a line, and at this very point, the person in front of me that I was going to cut across at a break that appeared, looked up and said “ I am so glad I saw you…I have been watching you in service and just had to tell you…”
When I was returning to my seat for the next portion of the conference, as I passed 2 rows behind me, another stranger looked up from her conversation to say to me “I just have to tell you…”
All of this happened within 15 minutes of each other and the message that ended each of those statements of “I just have to tell you…” were exactly the same and exactly what I was struggling with and exactly a message from God that I needed to hear and He wanted me to know. I was blown away by God’s closeness and intimacy. I was blown away by how God sought me out. These were strangers, sitting in different parts of the room and people who didn’t know what was in my head or that others had given me the same message. Only God could work that way.
All three people shared with me that they were listening to me and watching me worship; they loved the sound of my voice and it was beautiful; they loved my expression of worship to God and how I worship; that my worship helped them worship.
If I had listened to the voice that day that fed my insecurities, I don’t know whose life God was trying to bless, would have missed their blessing, including my own. God made sure His voice and message was the one heard.
The scripture tells us, “For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.” (Ephesians 2:10)
Scripture also tells us, “As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God’s varied grace.” (1 Peter 4:10)
The enemy tries to stop us with insecurity but God has gifted us and wants to use us. God already has a plan. God will go to great lengths to keep you moving in His plan. His plan is good. May you and I continue to grow in allowing God to use us and not believing the lies the enemy whispers to us. God is pleased with who He has made us to be. May nothing hold us back.
Psalm 139:14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.